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I am so devastated right now. I have to know tomorrow and let it all out during the process of trying to figure it out. It's like the end of the world for me...it just breaks my heart soo much I can't even bear to think about it.
Oh my eyes will be puffy after this post.

Assurance, please.

I've been bipolar and emotional for the past month or so. It's quite annoying for him & me, but I can't help it when I'm worried about the third party or I wasn't shown what I wanted...that might be affection or attention. I need assurance, damn it - just show me some kind of sign.
Sometimes there would be random bursts of tears even when all appears to be well - I swear if I hadn't used a tissue to wipe my face, the city of Garden Grove would be trying to drain all of this salty flood water. Honestly, I've always thought that it was strong enough to where rekindling would never be necessary. Anyway, I hope I'm wrong about this all?